Anorexia Recovery is hard. It sucks. It will be one of the hardest things you do. It will be painful and uncomfortable AND it is worth it and necessary and you deserve it!
Now that I got that out of the way, let me give you an update on my recovery. I’m in deep. Deep into recovery and trying to attack it from all angles. I’m prioritizing my sessions with my therapist, nutritionist and weight check-ins. I’m using a food log. I’m reducing strenuous workout sessions. I’m eliminating behaviors and I am eating. I’m trying new foods.
I also need to call myself out! I am not eating enough calories. I have to work harder. I have to accept that nourishment will lead to weight gain and that I need to gain weight to heal. I have to punch my eating disorder in the face…every time. My eating disorder is very sneaky and is always just waiting to snap. I have to talk back to my eating disorder thoughts. I need to look into the mirror and really identify what is important in my life, because the only thing my eating disorder wants is to take them all away from me.
Not on my fuckin’ watch!
Let’s Rise and Recover!
Serenity Always,
Meredith
